My Way Home

The pens have been lifted. The pages have dried.

Relocation October 9, 2014

Filed under: Milestones of Life — hazelin @ 7:39 am


Alhamdulillah for the extra energy today benefited from following my O&G consultant’s advice to take (or rather start religiously consuming back) the iron tablets prescribed to me. It has been a strenuous period for the past few weeks for the whole family as we are in the midst of relocating process. I’ll be moving back to Semenanjung after 7 good years in Kota Kinabalu.

Talking about relocation, it is taking a whole lot of momentum and energy to initiate the process, going through the transition period before being able to settle down in a new place or environment. We have gone through the challenging initiation period which has taken longer time than we expected. The unanticipated challenges had somehow pulled me back to re-evaluate the decision that had been agreed before. It was not about the right or wrong of the decision. You can plan and make all the calculation. But life is not made of mathematical theories and logic. “...and they devised plans and Allah too had arranged a plan; and Allah is the best of planners.” (Al-Quran, 8:30).

So now we are in the transition mode for almost a month. I believe it’s the most demanding phase. Alhamdulillah for all the support rendered by family members and friends. Hope to be able to pass this stage soon.


Heart of Muslim July 23, 2014

Filed under: Milestones of Life — hazelin @ 11:35 am

Looking up at the sky, searching for Allah most High
He rejected the way of worshipping Gods of clay
Prophet Ibrahim knew that Allah was near
And that the heart of a Muslim is sincere

Under the hot burning sun, he declared God is one
Though with stones on his chest, his Imaan would not rest
The Muadhin knew that right would conquer wrong
And the heart of a Muslim must be strong

It’s the heart of a Muslim through the guidance of Islam
That makes you fair and kind and helpful to your fellow man
So living as a Muslim means that you must play a part
Allah looks not at how you look, but what is in your heart

In our poor meager state, little food on our plate
Mother said she was glad, always sharing what we had
When I asked how can we share what’s not enough
She said the heart of a Muslim’s filled with love

He said its time you should know, you will learn as you grow
That some people around will do what’s bad to bring you down
Father said to be a star that’s shining bright
For the heart of a Muslim does what’s right

So whatever you do, make sure your words are true
Honesty is the best, because life is a test
Even if it hurts so much you want to cry
For the heart of a Muslim does not lie

Taharrau Lailatul Qadr!

– Ramadhan 1435-



Abang December 14, 2012

Filed under: Milestones of Life — hazelin @ 3:07 pm

ImageOh boy, you grow up so fast that we almost lost track of you!

Aadil is exactly 2 when his sister arrives (a pretty good timing so mama and baba can save on a shared birthday cake :)). Most of parenting notes describe young toddler at this age as TWO terrible, TWO troublesome. Heheh, it is somehow true.

Aadil is just TWO active! The only time to see him stay put is when he’s asleep or when he’s busy with gadgets like iphone, ipad – which is bad, i know :(. He’s now has become a chatterbox too. He tries to imitate every single thing that he hears – every word that people around him say and every sound that things around him make! Seriously, TWO cute!!!

I think his brain is developing very fast at this stage that we as parents should not taking it for granted. I have put less attention to Aadil towards final weeks of pregnancy and let Abu Aadil to spend most time with him as a transition stage before the arrival of the sister. Alhmdlh now after berpantang, i hope to be able to spend more time with him and become his first and best teacher 🙂

We are sending him to school next year for 2 main reasons:
1. Hope to reduce his exposure to tv n gadgets
2. Improve his socializing skill.

If he got to learn something new at school at this age; that will be a bonus as in KK we dont have the luxury of various montessories or child care that offers both good islamic and academic learning syllibus. So, we have no choice but to homeschool Aadil and become his best and most favourite teachers.


Hope to make it this time! January 22, 2012

Filed under: Milestones of Life — hazelin @ 5:32 am

One of the tips to get you to read is to write.

Another promise to myself to get back to writing.

But this time, with a focus, with a theme. Hope to be able to launch it very soon.


Mesej untuk ibu.. May 11, 2011

Filed under: Milestones of Life — hazelin @ 5:45 am


Bila Allah bg rezeki jd isteri n ibu, baru dpt rasakan sendiri betapa besarnya pengorbanan n kesabaran yg perlu dimiliki. Kita ingin memberikan yg terbaik utk anak n suami, walau pun hakikatnya kita ada byk tugasan lain yg membebani. Kita ingin org yg disayangi bahagia, sihat n ceria; walaupun diri penat n lesu terasa. Terima kasih ibuku.. jasamu takkan pnh terbalas oleh manusia..


What’s up?

Filed under: Milestones of Life,Not-So-Random Thoughts — hazelin @ 5:36 am


Oh, dah lamanya tak menulis.
Many things happened interesting enough to be shared but i just managed to write them down in my head.

1. Returning back to office after a luxurious maternity leave. I only had less than two months to complete all kpis that i promised to do in my performance contract. Alhamdulillah mama n cik ah were here to accompany us (i mean aadil n i since baba still away). Jazakumullahu khairan, only Allah can pay back all your good deeds. They were here for two months, with the hope that aadil would be prepared to be sent to nursery at the age of four month.

2. We are finally together as Wan family! Alhamdulillah! Allahu akbar! Penantian n doa hampir 2 tahun akhirnya termakbul.. Bila dah rasa nikmat living together under one roof, rasa hilang penat lelah duka luka waktu berjauhan. Ini baru secicip nikmat duniawi.. Teringat satu hadith yg lbh kurg mafhumnya:
Org yg paling nikmat d dunia, apabila d celup dgn satu celupan d neraka dia lupa semua nikmat dunia seolah tidak pernah merasa nikmat dunia.
Org yg paling susah di dunia, dimasukkan ke syurga sekelip mata, dia lupa semua kesusahan dunia seolah2 tak pernah mengalami kesusahan dunia.

Semoga dapat kukecapi nikmat syurga.. Amin..

3. Aadil will be 7 months next week!!! How time flies!! He’s doing amazing, growing up and developing new skills over the time at his own pace (yes, every baby’s development is unique). Now preparing himself for crawling- lifting up his butt/ back, doing stationary swimming (rupa macam nak berenang tp tak gerak ke mana pon). Mama n baba know that it’s time for us to also prepare the house to be child proof. Ouh, he’s also advancing his verbal skill. Dah pandai sebut mamama when he wants to be fed and say bababa when he needs nappy change! Clever boy 🙂

4. After some hesitation and thirough life cycle cost analysis, i finally got myself an iphone4. Yes, might be a bit late as the next generation of iphone is emerging soon anyway. Well, i aint an into-latest-cutting edge-gadget kind of person. As long as it can serve my need, i can live with just a basic laptop and handphone. But with additional roles and responsibilty, i decided to make some investment so that i can serve my role more effectively and efficiently. So this lil gadget in my hand comes with this oath. Huhuhu..

I think enough for now. Pen off.


It’s 1..2..3..4! September 30, 2010

Filed under: Milestones of Life — hazelin @ 1:12 am

Wan & Hazlin Journey Ticker

While I was in the middle of a strenuous technical meeting at the office this morning, suddenly I received an SMS that has carved a spontaneous wide smile on my face and broken a small laughter.

We have been married for 1 year, 2 months, 3 weeks & 4 days

It was him, my husband, with his ‘selamba’and out-of-sudden joke that I always love.

In my head I was imagining that he was spending his free time before bed by browsing through our dusty blog and found our marriage ticker. My guess was right when later I received an email from him asking for the username and password to access the blog account. That proves how long we have been neglecting the site.

My colleague who was sitting next to me asking me what has caused my sudden joy.  I showed her the SMS and then she said “Laa.. baru nak cakap congrats.. ingatkan anniversary ke..”.

Well, everyday is our anniversary; my heart said. Instead of voicing out the answer, I responded to her remarks with a smile.

Time flies very fast and we don’t realize that we have walked through our marriage journey this far. Alhamdulillah, I feel so blessed by Allah with this marriage; with a very loving husband and a soon-to-be-delivered baby. Even though we are separated thousand miles away for most of the time, Allah has made our hearts closer day by day. Even though we are yet to have the chance to settle down together at one place and make a living like a normal family, we are still confident that the day will come. If it’s not now here, it’ll be later there. We have started this journey together in the name of Allah; so we hope to reach our destination i.e. jannatullah, with His redha.

Later at night, I called my dear husband for our daily 10-minute chat (yes, we try to make ourselves discipline in order to save on the telephone bill). He started the conversation by teasing me with a quiz: Ok, how long have we been married? Uncertain with my answer, I sloooowly replied his question (with long mmmmmm and errrrrr in between) while my fingers rapidly pushing the buttons on the phone to check back his SMS this morning.

“It’s 1 year… emmm.. 2 months… errrr… 3 weeks and 4 days! Eh abang, do you realize it?! It’s 1.. 2.. 3.. 4!!”

“Ye la sayang, tak perasan pulak..”.. and we both broke into a big laughter.

Oh well friend, you can proceed with your wish..

Happy ‘1 2 3 4’ Anniversary to us!